Now that I’m definitely signed up for teacher training, I’m trying hard to get on quietly with the pre-course reading, but otherwise just keep on with doing my practice as well as I can and not start second-guessing what preparations I might otherwise do before the course. I’m trying to trust my teacher: if he accepted me onto the course then I’m good enough to participate in it and learn what I need to during the course (and beyond… but that’s another story).
But I’m a control freak and a believer in preparation being everything. So I’ve recruited a friend who’s happy to give me her body for an hour a week to see what I can practice teach her. Great idea, right? Two friends making a commitment to share some regular yoga practice. It sounds like a dream. And I’m pretty excited. And very grateful for the trust she shows in me, given that I’m totally untrained.
But I’m also pretty daunted.
What do I want to get out of this experience? What should I try to cover that will most prepare me for the whirlwind experience that an intensive TT will be? What could I do with my friend that will allow me to walk into TT with the greatest confidence possible and the most experience under my belt?
But wait! Teaching is not about me, it’s about the student. Surely this is the most important thing I can learn? It’s not about what I can get out of it, it’s what I can offer her. And I can only offer her what I already know and what I have experienced in my own practice. So instead of working backwards from TT to the present day and wondering how I might ever get from one to the other, I’m starting in the here and now and considering what my friend most needs in her yoga right now and what I can safely offer her.
She doesn’t need me to overthink this and get all angsty. She just wants to be guided safely through some āsanas that will make her feel better after a day sitting in the office. She’ll probably want some quiet moments to transition into and out of the practice. She deserves my full attention and care in the time we spend together — but she’ll want me to be just me. I’m not about to morph into some perfectly aligned, balletic type, who wafts about ethereally and intones yogic wisdom in hushed tones. I’m just going to be the best version of me I can be — because that’s what yoga offers, after all.
So my preparation tonight will be to plot out a small number of āsanas that are within our respective abilities and to order them intelligently for a smooth practice that feels good.
Now this is sounding more like fun again!
It doesn’t have to be complicated. And it doesn’t have to be perfect. That much I definitely know from my own practice.