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Close to home

Call me precocious but since it’s A WHOLE DAY since my TT graduation, I feel different. I feel more responsible to others and to myself. I feel my relationship to yoga has changed. I wonder if this will persist or if it’s just a settling-in period. When will my habitual imposter syndrome kick in again?…

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Graduation day!

I didn’t know whether I should go for a traditional foot-kissing routine with my teacher… It would have best shown how I felt. But he’s so not the guru type (fortunately🙂 ). So instead I followed the protocol of a quick cheek press as I received my TT certificate yesterday. I always thought TT would be…

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Full circle

Again a quick word from my TT whirlwind, to capture a moment, although I am too tired for careful words. Stay with me, my beloved readers. We sat for the last time in TT this morning with our meditation teacher. After my turn offering a meditation to the group he looked into my eyes to offer…

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Teaching energy

Again a quick word from my TT whirlwind, to capture a moment, although I am too tired for careful words. Stay with me, my beloved readers. My mother in law brought tears to my eyes over dinner the other night. No, not in the way you might think — it wasn’t any criticism of my cooking, or…

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Who’s next to me?

Again a quick word from my TT whirlwind, to capture a moment, although I am too tired for careful words. Stay with me, my beloved readers. We’ve been given class by a few different teachers these past days. We’re encouraged to talk about our experiences of them afterwards, as both students and student teachers. I confessed…

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Phoenix rising

Again a quick word from my TT whirlwind, to capture a moment, although I am too tired for careful words. Stay with me, my beloved readers. At the end of the day on my mat, a circle of yoginis around me, I don’t know how many. My eyes were blinded by tears and I was hanging…

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Affirmative

A quick word from my TT whirlwind, to capture a moment, although I am too tired for careful words. Stay with me, dear readers. So many affirmatives these past few days: You are beautiful. Your meditation really moved me. I enjoyed the poem you read. I love it when you leave your hair down. The colour pink really suits…

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On the threshold

It’s the day before my two week Teacher Training intensive. Just to remind myself what yoga is all about (and to get out of the crowded house!) I went to the 2 hour vinyasa class this morning. It was wonderful! Yes, it began as one of those days when I show up full of doubts…

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I am nothing on my own

I logged onto my work email this morning with a slightly heavy heart. Last day in the office before 2 weeks off means a lot of loose ends to tidy up and work to set straight. Plus this week in general feels like wading through treacle. I feel dull with no energy. And yoga class…

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Finding the silence

When I first learned meditation it was in a community centre. We sat in the gym and tried to filter out the loud noises from the kitchen on the other side of the wall. People often laughed at the perceived impossibility, but it was actually a great way to learn focus and means now that…